Be still!

I'm sure I've used that title before on some other blog post in the past.  It's something God constantly has to teach me...then teach me again...then pound me over the head with.

I'm good at lots of things, but being still is not one of them.  I can't even sit in the bathtub and "relax".  What is that about?  I don't understand the concept of "being still".  I am very good at running myself to the point of exhaustion.  I can pour my whole heart and soul into something until it takes every ounce of life out of me.  I'm really good at that.  And the product I produce is great, but the effects on my body are not so great.  And let's face it, I'm almost 40.  My body can't take a beating like it used to.

So, I decided to "be still".  I'm on sabbatical from my children's ministry job for the next 5 weeks.  Hardest choice I've ever had to make, but definitely something I need to do.  I need to recharge my brain, my heart, my body...and just let them do nothing for a bit.  I need to not pour into anything for a few weeks until I feel like myself again.  All I can say is it's going to be hard. But it seems that all the good lessons in my life that God absolutely has to teach me always seem to be hard.  So, I'm looking forward to the lesson.

My being still for this first week has involved spring cleaning (real "still", huh?) & picking some paint colors to paint a few rooms.  May not seem "still", but it's making time out for things I've neglected but that I really enjoy.  I've put my hobbies aside for a while now, that I'm going to spend the next few weeks having fun.  I even sat down and watched a movie the other day...all by myself... in the middle of the day!  How refreshing!

God made me the way I am for a reason.  Now, I just need to learn balance.  I think I'll sit down and ponder that...and possibly take a nap on the couch.  :)